What is Normal??

I was thinking about that question this morning when I got on the scale. Down 2 pounds, that is good and I am happy. I was wondering when I would be at a "normal" size. I am not sure why we say that we want to be normal, really I think we just want to appear normal. I want everyone else to look at me and not think "oh she is fat" I want them to think "oh she is normal". I don't even know what normal is?? So maybe I don't want to be normal, I just don't want FAT to be the first thing people see and think. Some days the eating is still hard. People don't understand that the band doesn't keep you from wanting to act on your emotional response which for me would be eating. I just need to keep moving forward and finding happiness in what size I am now and looking in the mirror and learning to love what is there.