What is Normal??

I was thinking about that question this morning when I got on the scale. Down 2 pounds, that is good and I am happy. I was wondering when I would be at a "normal" size. I am not sure why we say that we want to be normal, really I think we just want to appear normal. I want everyone else to look at me and not think "oh she is fat" I want them to think "oh she is normal". I don't even know what normal is?? So maybe I don't want to be normal, I just don't want FAT to be the first thing people see and think. Some days the eating is still hard. People don't understand that the band doesn't keep you from wanting to act on your emotional response which for me would be eating. I just need to keep moving forward and finding happiness in what size I am now and looking in the mirror and learning to love what is there.

Getting Seconds

Hopefully today I will be getting my second fill. I must admit that I have not posted much. I think I have been pretty dissapointed in myself. I feel like I should be doing better. I hope the second fill will help me some. It's so hard to be patient and let the weight come off slow. In the past I have always over-done the diet, if you know what I mean. Lost weight really quickly, problem is guess what happens??? Yep, it all comes back plus some. I know this is the reason to take it easy and let it come off slow. Relax Lillie, let the band be your tool and take it easy. Learn the good habits that will last a lifetime. Find somethings to be grateful for, they are there.