Back in the Office

Yesterday I worked from home. Had a good weekend, tried to get lots of rest, knowing I would be back to work on Monday. I had lots of problems with nausea, I guess it's normal. Yesterday I finally called the nutritionist and she said to move to mushy foods, which goes from clear liquids to food like cream of wheat, cottage cheese, pudding, mash potatoes, things like that. It is very small amounts per serving, like only 1/2 cup. I got a bit excited last night trying to figure out how I could have some cottage cheese and some pudding. I have to get over that mentality. I guess it's the old diet ways kicking in. I also felt a bit fearful, 1.fear of eating food and getting sick, how is my stomach going to react, i don't want to vomit, etc. 2.fear of gaining weight, I know that is crazy, but I am loosing weight, and I am scared if I eat some normal food that will stop. I did find myself over the weekend wondering what to do with myself. Sunday is a day of cooking or going to eat, I couldn't really do any of those things. No reason anymore to cook a big ole meal on Sunday, just me and hubby at home. I think hubby missed our weekend routine of going to breakfast. I see no reason why we can't go next weekend. I can order some oatmeal that is mushy. We enjoy sitting there talking and having coffee, no reason not to do that. Just have to get accustomed to the changes. Have a great great day ever..... Lovely Banded Lil

HOME SWEET HOME....

I am home...wooohoo. I had to stay overnight at the hospital as a requirement from my insurance company. I have to say this was an easy procedure. I did not have any problems at all. The shoulders are sore due to the gas pain. They pump air, or gas or something into your stomach so it blows up and they have room to work in there. So then this gas moves up through your shoulders and other areas. It can kinda of painful, but not to bad. The more you walk and move around the more the gas will move through and out!!! So I went into surgery and after a few deep breaths I was out and woke up in recovery. In recovery they gave me a very small cup of ice chips to help with the dry mouth. My throat was sore and I was out of it. After about an hour or so they moved me to my room. I had to go down and have a swallow test. Now that sucks!!! you have to stand up in this xray machine and drink some white barium drink while the dr watches it pass into your stomach. You don't have to drink too much, but it is thick and yucky. So back up to my room and then I get some ice water. Now that was goood, I was ready for it, so dry mouth. I still did not feel much pain. They took really good care of me. I actually got some dinner!!! It consisted of the much beloved jello, a cup of crystal lite, a bowl of broth, and some tea, oh and dessert of a Popsicle. Had to take a dose of nausea medicine and that pretty much put me out. So that was yesterday!!!! not bad for the first day of the rest of my life!!!!

Tomorrow is the Big Band Day

I can't believe tomorrow is the day. My first appointment with Dr. Wright was back on January 13. It has moved really quick. The last 2 weeks I have been on protein shakes twice a day and one low carb meal, usually dinner. I have had sugar free jello and frozen treats some. Usually in the evening I have one snack, either pork skins or peanuts. I have my prescriptions filled already, liquid meds for nausea and liquid meds for pain. I have read that the pain is pretty bad, so I am a bit scared!!! I go back and forth from being really excited and ready, to feeling sort of depressed, like "why has it come to this"?, why can't I do this without surgery. I guess like everyone I have tried everything, lost the weight and then gained it back. Sometimes I even feel a bit mournful for the food I will be missing. Now that is horrible, but wow, there is lots of things I could potentially never be able to eat again. I tell you, I am ready to feel better, get this fat off of me and start living again. I have good support and will get through this tomorrow..... lovely lovely lil